Ok, what's my problem. The sleep medicine seems to be helping some...at least during the night. During the day I'm still getting drowsy. So I give in a try to sleep but inevitably one out of five comes to bug me for something. So I can't rest anyway. I'm so tired of being tired. But? I also know I have to train myself out of it and get back to life. I have little patience for the everyday things and the pettiness of the children. Ugh, I want to toss my hand up and give up, but then I'm still here with the same situation and circumstances.
In my Bible study about the "normal" state of the mind; means to rest in peace, so that God can speak. I can't even go to the "potty" by myself let alone 5 minutes of peace. Ok, I know it means peace at heart. Well, maybe I can start with a shower to "feel" refreshed then maybe I can at least cope with joy in my heart, and be grateful for my little blessings of life.
Oh, and I miss Zaylei. My little snuggle baby. She won't be back for two weeks. She's going home with her grandma to Kentucky. I and the girls adore that little punk. She's so much fun. I just feel like a big cry baby today........sorry. Having a major temper tantrum in my head!!! I see that little girl jumping up and down screaming. I much prefer that little girl to be dancing in joy and praise to the Lord. Maybe I should practice what I preach and go put on some praise music. See ya soon after the ice storm.......
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Sometimes I picture myself in the eye of a hurricane. The family can be swirling all around me but I'm in the middle at peace. (Doesn't always work)
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